Friday, May 12, 2006
2 songs
I wanted to shout at Amanda for sending me this.
>>People Watching<<
Jack Johnson
Well I’m just people watching, the other people watching me
We’re all people watching, the other people watching we
We’re as lonely as we want it to be
We’re all as lonely as we want it to be
Just as lonely as we want it to be
I’m just you, you’re just me
It’s only true, if we believe
Well there really ain’t no use in stopping
What nobody never told me not to do
So I’ll keep people watching
Watching me now
Finding my way back to you
We’re as lonely as we want it to be
We’re all as lonely as we want it to be
I’m just as lonely as we want it to be
I’m just you, you’re just me
It’s only, true if we believe
I see so many feet going so many ways
People passing by they got nothing to say
On our own just watching and confused
Well if nobody told me what to do
I guess I’m breaking all the rules
Well I’m just people watching the other people watching me
We’re all people watching the other people watching we
We’re as lonely as we want it to be
We’re not so lonely as we want it to be
I’m just as lonely as I want it to be
Not so lonely
Lonely
Lonely
Lonely
Lonely
Lonely
Lonely
Then I realized I was angry that it hit right on.
How come I always misunderstand people. Probably because I'm always pretending all day. No wonder.
Didn't get into either NUS nor SMU. Feeling really crummy. Feeling unhappy about myself. Walking along Funan struggling not to blow it on a new PS2 just for the sake of playing Kingdom Hearts II.
The world's suffocating, and I can't say a thing, becuase I don't know how to. Wondering how $4000 is going to last me through University without begging from my parents.
Strolling around the world thnking I don't want any part of these people's lives, except for the select few I deem worthy. Then I begrudge them for not fulfilling my unrealistic expectations. Thinking of choices, decisions, and double guessing. Rationalizing only to end up irrationally indecisive.
Sitting there with tunneled vision, focusing on one thing, and letting the world just pass me by. Fearful of losing it, not knowing everything else is being lost.
Doubting my own abilities, and questioning my resolve. Coming to conclude I make a bad leader, or maybe I'm not cut out to lead at all.
Then I heard this song.
>>Happy<<
Meleni Smith
Landlord's knocking at my door
Cussing me out
Got laid off my job the night before
I can't feel how
I'm gonna fix tomorrow and
Yes today's still a mess
Can you tell me what's the point then?
It all seems meaningless
Wish that I could step away and breathe
This world's trying to swallow me
Clear away the clouds inside my head
Someone just tell me that it's okay now
What are you worrying about?
Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends, got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there's so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy
[Happy, happy? Happy]
(People lie) People lie
People hide (People hide)
People cry (People cry)
People fight and they don't know why
If fear is all that we should fear
Then what are we so afraid of?
Cause fear is only in our heads
So why do we let it control us?
Fear makes me forget how sweet the simple things in life really are
Fear makes me believe that I'm alone
Someone please say that it's okay now
What are you worrying about?
Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends, got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there's so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy
Any day I'll go mad thinking that
As long as it gets me the world wants to fight me
Preparing to battle an enemy I'm seeing
During my stressin' I'm blinded to the lessons
That could be of lesson if I'd be confessing
That the enemy who's trying to be
Is hiding inside of me, ohhh
But it's okay now (It's okay)
What am I worrying about?
Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends, got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there's so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy
Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends, got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there's so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy
[Happy, happy? Happy]
And all of a sudden, I yearn for a certain simplicity. Even if it's a tad meaningless.
Gavin
pondered @ 18:45
